New Direction?

What is the point of a blog? What is it that needs to be written for all to see? Who wants to read anything I have to say? What is it that God is laying upon my heart? These are all questions that have been going through my mind a lot over the past few weeks. Well, months. Do I want this blog to be all about my boys? In some ways yes but I have social media to really help keep family up to date on all of our happenings. Do I want this to be a resource for moms/women? Yes! How do I go about making that? That I haven't been so sure about so I went in prayer about it. I've been in prayer for all moms and wives out there. I want to be a source of inspiration, a friend who will listen, a prayer warrior. By no means do I believe I've got everything together. I'm a mess. but I do believe God has called me to be a voice. So I hope as the weeks and months continue you will find this blog as a source of inspiration. A place to come and read and grow. And if nothing else, know you are not on this journey of being a woman of God, a wife and a mother, that you are not alone. I have three boys and im trying to do my best to raise them to be Godly men who will one day lead their families, businesses, churches, or maybe even our country. Some days I feel like I barely scrap by teaching them valuable lessons. Other days seem to breeze by. So please trust me when I say I'm learning and growing everyday with all of you.

There are two lessons I have learned recently and finally seemed to have grasped what they mean. The first is I'm a beautiful mess. I have watched the movie Moms Night Out several times and this part always gets me. At the very end of the money the point is made that we have an important job being a wife and mom. We are raising the future leaders of our cities and towns. What is it I want them to learn? Are my actions teaching them? That cause me to reflect on my dad to day activities, my attitude. Am I thankful? Am I praising God in the good and bad? I may be trying to teach them values and morals but what music am I listening too? What tv shows or movies am I watching? Kids are intuitive. More than adults give them credit for. I think these questions are different for each of us but the heart of it is the same. We want our children to have good morals, good values. Be full of integrity and honesty. Make sure you are showing them that, even when you don't think they are watching because kids are always watching. They are like sponges. We just have to be careful what we fill them with.  I don't have this wife and mom thing all figured out but that is ok. It's ok to be a mess because to God I am a beautiful mess. He didn't make a mistake by giving me these three boys.  He didn't make a mistake by bringing Heath and I together. So while I struggle with not having it all together. I take heart in following Gods direction and knowing he made me, and he doesn't make mistakes.

The second lesson is learning what it means to stand in the gap. I have recently began reading a book about being a prayer warrior mom. Standing in the gap in prayer for our children. There are so many things vying for our children's attention. With technology so advanced, the pressures and knowledge we had at a young age is not near what our children have. Satan is doing what he can go attack kids and families. I pray for my boys daily. But in learning what it means to stand in the gap for them. They are young. They are inexperienced. There are things that at times they just do not understand. I'm reading this book slowly so I can fully grasp what it is I am called to do. The first step is teaching them gratefulness and thankfulness. teach them how to see the beauty in life. Like the song 'give me your eyes' by Matthew West. We have started a grateful/thankful part of the wall at our house. It isn't big. But everyday, or most days because let's face it families are just plain busy these days., and we go around and say one thing we are thankful for on that day. And this isn't something we keep hidden or tucked away. The point is to see it and see it often. Let it be a reminder of everything God has given and done for you. Try it for a few days. See what things God has blessed you with.